He is faithful: After ground school
Lord, You remain faithful even when I am not. You are my comfort, hope and peace. You are there in the midst of the good and the midst of the bad. You have been right by my side through it all. Thank you for your unfailing love and comfort in the unknown. Thank you for your faithfulness and sacrifice. Jesus name, amen.
These past 2 weeks I have been going through a process called ground school. Going in I felt confident that it would be hard but somehow super easy for me. I knew what it was like to be away from family and put in different uncomfortable situations. This, however, was completely different. I discovered loss of comfort and loss of justice. Emotionally, it was super hard. I had an aching that wouldn't go away. I felt lonely and like I needed others back home just to survive. We had our phones taken away as well as all electronics. For two weeks I wasn't allowed to talk to my family and the people closest to me. I wasn't worried until hard emotional feelings came up and I felt that I had no one to turn to. I couldn't talk to anyone but the unfamiliar faces that stood in front of me. I was so anxious to quit that I almost did a few times. God's strength, unfamiliar people, and the voices in my head of the people back home telling me to press on was what kept me here.
God really revealed to me how dependent I am on others. Instead of running to God I started running to those I began to be close to and I knew it was becoming a problem but through ground school, I began to realize it was a huge problem. I was making people my idol instead of Christ. Although ground school was tough and I wanted to quit so many times, I realize now, almost a week later, that it was all worth it. This whole Fusion process is hard and will continue to be but I'm not doing this for myself I'm doing this for Christ and so others may hear and live. What Jesus did on the cross was so much harder than anything I could ever go through. I confess I still struggle with putting other things and people before God but I know through this process God will continue to remain faithful and reveal many things.
I love hearing that people are praying for me because that is the most important thing. I wouldn't be here today had people not taken the time to pray for me. Here are some specifics that would be very much appreciated. Pray for: my passion for the nations to increase, my classes as some will be hard, for me to not procrastinate as I am very good at doing, my cohort as well as all of Fusion, my prayer/bible time to be more intimate and more often, my parents/family, and my love for the gospel to increase. I would love to be able to hear specific prayers you all have! Please message, text, or call me about things I can be praying for you about. I love you all very much and can't begin to express how much you mean to me!
These past 2 weeks I have been going through a process called ground school. Going in I felt confident that it would be hard but somehow super easy for me. I knew what it was like to be away from family and put in different uncomfortable situations. This, however, was completely different. I discovered loss of comfort and loss of justice. Emotionally, it was super hard. I had an aching that wouldn't go away. I felt lonely and like I needed others back home just to survive. We had our phones taken away as well as all electronics. For two weeks I wasn't allowed to talk to my family and the people closest to me. I wasn't worried until hard emotional feelings came up and I felt that I had no one to turn to. I couldn't talk to anyone but the unfamiliar faces that stood in front of me. I was so anxious to quit that I almost did a few times. God's strength, unfamiliar people, and the voices in my head of the people back home telling me to press on was what kept me here.
God really revealed to me how dependent I am on others. Instead of running to God I started running to those I began to be close to and I knew it was becoming a problem but through ground school, I began to realize it was a huge problem. I was making people my idol instead of Christ. Although ground school was tough and I wanted to quit so many times, I realize now, almost a week later, that it was all worth it. This whole Fusion process is hard and will continue to be but I'm not doing this for myself I'm doing this for Christ and so others may hear and live. What Jesus did on the cross was so much harder than anything I could ever go through. I confess I still struggle with putting other things and people before God but I know through this process God will continue to remain faithful and reveal many things.
I love hearing that people are praying for me because that is the most important thing. I wouldn't be here today had people not taken the time to pray for me. Here are some specifics that would be very much appreciated. Pray for: my passion for the nations to increase, my classes as some will be hard, for me to not procrastinate as I am very good at doing, my cohort as well as all of Fusion, my prayer/bible time to be more intimate and more often, my parents/family, and my love for the gospel to increase. I would love to be able to hear specific prayers you all have! Please message, text, or call me about things I can be praying for you about. I love you all very much and can't begin to express how much you mean to me!
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